I remember an excruciating time in my life when my parents were sick, and death was very close. During those times I had a bible verse that I constantly repeated, “Be still and know that I am God”. To me, these words were reassuring me that God is in control and I could put all my worries on Him and trust Him for the outcome.
Divorce was another story. Yes, the pain of death in my family was horrible. I have lost my parents and three of my brothers to death. As awful as that was it does not compare to being thrown away. Why? Because when someone casts you aside and breaks all their promises to you, this is done with intent.
“Divorce is like a death but with intent.”
One of the many verses that kept me going in a time I could have easily given up was Deuteronomy 31:6
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
What I took from this verse was to stay strong, well, as strong as I could, knowing that Gods word is true and that He will never leave me or forsake me as my husband did.
I am sure many turn away from God in their fear and confusion. How could a God that loves me put me in this situation? I believe God understands this reaction to this life-shattering event and walks beside us as we wander in our grief.
I think that turning away from our faith can lead to further depression, a lack of security and stability in our belief system can cause further pain and confusion. Our faith gives us hope and an identity that can keep us strong.
For me, my faith is what helped me keep going. Because when I wanted to end it all I would hold tightly to my faith.
“I see being thrown away by my husband as more painful than death because it was done with intent. Turning away from my faith in those troubled times would have been equivalent to yet another death so I choose to hold tightly to God with all hope to never let go.”
I have found that faith was the most important aspect of my survival as I struggled through the early days of my separation and pending divorce. My faith remains important today as I try to find God’s path for my life.
I would suggest that you hold tightly to your faith in all things. It will give you perspective and knowledge that you are not alone. If you turn away from your faith because of the confusion you have encountered I believe God understands your pain and He holds you.