2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT
“God wants His grace to be completed in your weakness. You never really experience the grace unless you see the need for it—and even that realization comes by grace. The power of Jesus’ grace is not fully seen until weakness is fully acknowledged.
The moment you are overwhelmed with your absolute helplessness is
the moment you areready to hear Jesus say, I’m all the grace you need.”
Quote above by Walk in the Word with James MacDonald
Weakness, that is what many of us feel when faced with an unwanted separation and pending divorce. The weakness found in the hurt, the fear, and the confusion. The weakness found in the unknown, the betrayal, the lies, the future. I was, as James MacDonald puts it, “overwhelmed with absolute helplessness.” I prayed more than I have ever prayed. I sought Gods comfort more than I ever had. I become more familiar with his word, and it became more personal than ever before.
Would I say I am completely back to normal nearly four years away from the beginning of the trauma? The answer would have to be “not yet but still improving.” For me, the “boasting in our weakness” translates into the fact that we can use our experience to help others on the same path. To show others that God’s grace will guide them through their toughest and weakest of times. I believe if we hide our experience and fail to “boast” of God’s help, we miss an opportunity and our pain will be wasted. I don’t want that. I want to use my pain to encourage others.
Thank you for your love and grace, God.
And for your promise “I will never leave you or forsake you.”