My husband left me unexpectedly in 2013. The emotional pain was beyond what I could have imagined. In this Series “Looking Back at My Divorce Journey” I will share some of my writings and experiences of that time.
Looking Back at My Divorce Journey
I am writing this letter because I have been through a trauma. The pain of a husband walking out after 37 years of marriage.
My husband was a pastor for nearly 20 years. Being a pastor’s wife I thought I could understand the pain that one felt when faced with separation and divorce. I realize now, that this has become my reality, that I was extremely short-sighted in thinking I could even begin to relate. I had no idea! The emotional and physical extensions of this pain can be debilitating. Day to day responsibilities seem insurmountable. You become oddly paralyzed.
It has been over a year since this new chapter began in my life. Am I completely recovered? No. Not completely. My Dr. tells me it can take two to three years to even start to feel whole again. I have come a very long way in the past year though and I am thankful for all the support of my friends. I am thankful for my faith and the knowledge that God is beside me.
I believe that if I suppressed this reality in my life and just move on like it never happened I would be lying to myself. I believe that God can use our experiences and our pain to help others on the same journey. I too believe others on this road can help me.
“Experience is not what happens to you. It is what you do with what happens to you.
Don’t wast your pain. Use it to help others”
God Bless You On Your Journey!